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Howie it is 7:26 am On Monday, Sept. 17, 2012. My fiancee has been on my mind all night, a lil more different than usual. I can only guess why. Since you died, the boys have been in and out of jail, on probaion, far from God. One is n jail right now, the other has a warrant and he just got out. I remember when you were here how you would take on th father role, take them off some place, return, they would be so much more grateful for life, appreciative, less rebellious. Know what, I still to this day do not know were it was nor what you guys did on those moments. Priceless. Howard know bein has measured up to you. I know the Howard coming nto God, not the Howard I have been told was something else on wheels,( the stories you told me~LOL) I miss you. Our talks, walks, laughs. Sometimes I see someone that look so much like you. I am getting the feeling it is you looking out for me, our boys, lil famly. I just got that feeling when I spoke of your look alikes. I can see you saying it was me.
Howie I stopped living. Thanks for the question am I living, am I existing. I know it came from you now. You always cared for/about me. Miss you. (Bonnie n Cldye)